Two weeks ago today we gathered to celebrate your life. It all didn't seem real. It still doesn't. I have no regrets...we said our I love you's. I hope you felt it the last time we spoke my deep love for you. I know its the natural order of things for a parent to leave this earth. But it doesn't make the pain any easier. You were supposed to grow old. You were supposed to have many years of retirement. You and mom were to travel the country every winter. Chasing the cold away.
My grief is so heavy like a weight I am unable to carry. It seems that everything I have is very fragile. That in a split second everything I hold dear will be gone.
I am not asking why...I trust that GOD knows what he is doing. I will need him more than ever to help me with this heavy heart that I carry around.
